Voices Inside Her Head

The rain was pouring heavily. The world around her was asleep.  Amidst the noise of rainfall, the snoring sound of the old man, she could hear them clearly.

 She is used to them now. As a kid she thought they are coming from downstairs, monsters lurking in the dark are talking to each other, But the voices were familiar. It sounds like an echo of the voices she heard during the day. But no one else heard them.

She searched for the monsters under her bed, inside the storeroom and behind the closed doors, but there were none!! She wondered where are they hiding? At night, she kept her eyes open, expecting them to come out of the closets in search of her. But they never paid her a visit.

Her search continued until the day she realised, they are inside her. Monsters are inside her talking to each other. Fighting and smashing each other's heads. Oh, no they are the voices inside her head, keeping her awake all night!!

She will have to learn how to calm them down.

Stranger

She looked straight into the eyes. The stranger stared back. She asked "Who are you?", stranger in the mirror replied :" You" . She shook her head in disbelief.

Her eyes searched for something familiar.
The disheveled hair,dull eyes ,withered lips,there was no traces of her.

She screamed :"Who are you?"
Answer was same "You"

A tear drop ran down her cheeks. Flashing memories. There, at that moment appeared a slight sad smile. There she was... Under the camouflage.

Oh, the reminder of past glories,
Memories of beautiful days.

She smiled again ..
And the reflection smiled back!

There is a happy land far far away ...

In that dark chilling night, the trees stood shivering. Inside his concrete mansion Saabji was fast asleep. “There is a happy land far far away”, her voice echoed around the corner. After all these years, after witnessing all these massacre she is still humming that song. still hoping to be there.
Sometimes madness and faded memories helps in escaping the brutal reality. In a place where people kill one another for the sake of believes, for their gods, even for an animal, who is sane and who is insane.

Her voice disturbed Saabji’s sleep. He shouldn’t be disturbed. He is the one who is writing the future of this country. Guards threw stones at her. As she ran away ,abusive words followed. She is not a wandering cow, otherwise they might have treated her with respect. She is not even a street dog, otherwise some animal lover/activist might have showed up to fight for her rights. She is just a woman.

She walked slowly towards the park. Blowing wind attacked her weak body ferociously. Still her lips formed the words. Happy land..far..far.. away..
The fire burning at the corner of the park invited her. But she couldn’t see the hidden demons in that dancing flames.

The next morning when park was being cleaned, that wretched tiny creature didn’t invited much attention. But her eyes where bright. It was like she is still in a dream.
“There is a happy land far far away
Bright in that happy land beams every eye”
Cleaning lady just closed her eyes. A shabby white cloth covered her dignity.

Saabji was standing in his balcony. The view was refreshing. Greenery, fresh air and mist. He noticed the park bench is empty. He felt content. His land is progressing. That homeless is no more sleeping on that park bench and the place is shining. Spotlessly clean.

Hope

For her  life was like a fairy tale. Everything had its own rhythm.She lived her life hearing the symphony of nature, admiring the beauty of every tiny thing which she saw around her. Her small glowing eyes always searched for happiness, she found it everywhere and she spread the happiness in her world. As she started knowing the world ,slowly  her eyes lost its glow and the sadness started hiding in the depth of her beautiful eyes. The distance between her and her happiness increased. She never let the world know how badly a broken heart hurts and she learned how to smile to make others believe that she is happy and to cry to her pillow secretly. The pain waited with the light and came out and screamed at her in the dark. Her heart was broken in to pieces,still with every  single piece she tried to love the same world with the innocence of a small child. She knew that it is hard to live without a hope. She is still waiting for a new beginning like a new bright morning following every dark night.

Joker

I made the crowd laugh

And I laughed loudly

A hollow laugh

Tears were hidden in the eyes

Voice of crying were blocked in the throat

People laughed, forgot their worries

But didn’t had time to think about

This funny foolish joker

That, I too have a life

That broken inside and still makes the world laugh

Have a heart in pathetic condition

That no doctor can repair

Have tears enough to fill a dried river

But cant cry.

I am afraid of this world

If they found out I will lose the job

I am a joker..

Must laugh to make the world laugh

Funny foolish joker!

A forgotten soul

One day she stopped talking to all

Everybody wondered what happened,

To their charming princess

They concluded she is dying in his memories

But she knew the truth

She is living with his memories…

In the dark silent nights

When she looked at  the sky

The lonely stars brought her,                                              

 the memories of every wish

she made to see him happy.

The colours of the morning brought her,

The memories of the lost colours of her life.

The shiny afternoons brought her,

 the memories of his shiny smile.

He was sad ,alone.

She entered his world

Brightened it up with her charm.

She took away his sadness,

She gave her beautiful smile to him

To see him happy.

Now her world is empty with out him

She is falling apart.

Now his sadness is with her

He left with her smile….